During an interview with the team of “The Me, You Can’t See” one of the documentaries on Apple TV with the actors in the lead role are Oprah Winfrey and Prince Harry. Lady Gaga in the interview reflects some of her past mysteries. She puts light on the incident of lingering effects of being sexually assaulted as a teenager. Then becoming Pregnant and struggling to cope with ongoing abuse. Which was inflicted by an unnamed producer whom the singer says demanded that she take her clothes off or they would burn her music.
Lady Gaga told in the interview that “I just froze and I- I don’t even remember,” “And I will not say his name. I understand this Me Too movement, and I understand people feel really comfortable with this, and I do not. I do not ever want to face that person again.”
Also, still, not the many years passed to the accident, Lady Gaga told her doctor that she was feeling chronic pain. Then her doctor advised her to see a psychiatrist. When she went to see a psychiatrist then she discovered that she was suffering from PSTD. The singer disclosed this diagnose in 2016 to the public and along with this she also recently recalled it when she was with Oprah during Winfrey’s 2020 Vision: Your Life in Focus tour.
Gaga says during Winfrey’s 2020 Vision that “First I felt full-on pain, then I went numb,”. she added to it that “I realized it was the same pain I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on the corner, at my parents’ house, because I was vomiting and sick. Because I was being abused. I was locked away in a studio for months.”
To this, the singer said that “I had a total psychotic break, and for a couple of years, I was not the same girl,” which the episode indicates happened in 2018. The singer also discusses coping with self-harm. “Even if I have six brilliant months, all it takes is getting triggered once to feel bad,” she says. “And when I say I feel bad, I mean I want to cut. Think about dying. Wondering if I’m ever going to do it. I learned all the ways to pull myself out of it.”
Gaga replied that “What’s so interesting is the line I walk, feeling like I wanna cut myself and feeling like I don’t, are actually really close together,”. “Everybody thinks it’s gotta be a straight line, that it’s like every other virus, that you get sick and then you get cured. It’s not like that. It’s just not like that. And actually, I think that traps people.”
To which the singer replied that “I don’t tell this story for my own self-service, because, to be honest, it’s hard to tell,”. “I feel a lot of shame about it. How do I explain to people that I have privilege, I’ve got money, I’ve got power, and I’m miserable? How do you do that? I’m not here to tell my story to you because I want anybody to cry for me. I’m good. But open your heart up for somebody else. Because I’m telling you, I’ve been through it and people need help. So, that’s part of my healing, being able to talk to you.”
So, the debut for the documentary “The Me You Can’t See” will debut on Friday morning on Apple TV.